What the F???

Well,
It happens to me often that I write something and then am too bored to read it, even proff-read it. I mean, heck, I just wrote it, pulled it from my grey cells and now I have torture the same grey cells to read and analyse the material they just produced AGAIN!!! How totally unfair.
BUTTTT, no proof-reading means, when I read my own posts some 2 months later, I sit there staring, thinking...WTF, how did I ever write that. I mean, did I just not use the "so" in the same sentence and there it is again....F****.
And then all I see are the glaring mistakes, that pop right up. Not the thoughts, not the "in-between-the-lines" stuff...Just the mistakes...HATE IT!!
So POA, will try to be good and read wateva I write..TRY, TRY, TRY.
Does that I have to read everything that preceeds this word...F**************K!!!

Law of Attraction-- oprah show.

I sprained my ankle yesterday evening while taking a walk, so am glued to the couch with an ice pack on my right ankle.
So, I am on TV therapy. I am watching Oprah. She is talking to a panel of life coaches talking about Law of Attraction. One of the ladies defined the law of attraction as "You exactly get what you want."
The universe will give you only what you exactly want; rather intend. The difference between a wish and an intent is that is wish is something that springs from a need. I wish I have a stringer husband becuase I want him to be able to pick me up. I wish I win a lottery because I want to buy a Beamer convertible. However, intent is something that comes from inner core of peace. Also, your body tells you the difference between a wish and intent. When you say what you want aloud, if it is something u really want, your feel physically stronger.
This is a very interesting thought. I think that I am watching this show because it is my intent to get out of this miserable situation. My inner core wants me to be really happy and so I am having this entire experience so that I can grow.
Another interesting statement: " The world is conspiring for my betterment."

Thing to take away: Make a vision board. Almost everyone on the show talked about making a vision board. A lot og ladies also had vision boards.
A vision board is something you make from what you want to vision for yourself. Express the visions using pictures, letters, printouts.

I am going to give it a try.
I am starting my vision board contents today.

More about the show as I watch. I am totally loving it so far.

Dancer's Performance List

Here is a list of things that Jaz created for us jewels. I am sure there will be things added to this ever-evolving-as-this-jewel-performs list. But a girl's gotta start somewhere. So here we go.
You fellow dance-bellas, please improvise :-)

1. Costume -- Important to check all the components of the costume.
2. Cover-Up. -- Don't want to give everyone a peak at the costume :-). Always SHOCK them!!
   
3. Props -- If dancing with one, check it the night before the performance. Pay attention to the condition and look if the prop has any details or decoration on it. This is crucial especially if you have been practicing with it. Props will often gather the signs of practice and rehearsals. When a jewel dances, the jewel mesmerizes the spectators with the spectacles of shimmies and mayas and never lets the imperfections of the prop distract from her glow .
4. Safety pins - I usually keep a compartmentalized box that contains all the safety pins in different sizes. makes pins easy to find in a hurry between costume changes.
   
5. Double-sided tape. A garment tape will also do as long as it can hold.
6. Needle and thread. Keep a white, black and one thread in the costume colour.
7. Bobby pins.
8. U-pins.
9. Stapler. for those times when safety pins fail.
   
10. Deodorant or Solid perfume....becuz you want to look and smell HOT, despite being hot and sweaty.
11. Tissues. Wet and dry.
12. Make up wipes
13. Spare elastic.
14. Diaper pins. This is for all you shimmie-llicous babes, to keep the belt from sliding down your booty.
15. Dental floss/ breath mints/ mouth freshener.
16. First aid kit -- Sprain Spray, Neosporin, Band-aid
17. Makeup -- Refer to things in the makeup kit.
18. Nail polish -- same colour as you are wearing. In case you dance your toes off.
    
19. Manicure corrector. If you have a small chip.
    
20. Spare shoes or sandals. To be prepared when you might be asked to mingle with the crowd
21. Water
22. A snack that can give instant energy. Something sugary like apricots and almonds. Preferably, nothing spicy or greasy.

That's all I have so far. Will keep adding as I learn more!

Shimmie on!!

Men from Mars.....??

Okay...so I am trying to keep up my self-made promise to write everyday (if possible :-) ). I have been thinking about how men seem to take advantage of their friends who are girls. So here you have a girl who wants a guy to talk to her, give her a man's perspective on life, just so that she can find her way through the completely confusing and puzzling world of MEN. And she gets is just another guy who wants to touch her every chance he gets, show his guy friends "look-who-is-my-friend". Is it really so difficult to be a friend? This is so confusing.
Well, so I am going to try another way of dealing with this. Keep the friend AWAY for some time and see what happens.
I have heard from a lot of fellow GFs that the IGNORE therapy works wonders. It has never worked for me so far, but this time I am prepared to give it a full try. I will try hard not to give into temptation to talk (which is SOOOO D%#$*#(#$*N hard).

I have been dancing a lot lately. I think it is really helping me deal with life and stress better, not to mention the added benefit of getting a chance to dress up and look HOOOOOT and then shake the booty :-D...FABOULICIOUS!!!

Just one of those days

I am jut having one of those days that starts off feeling great and wonderful, and then sometime around late afternoon ( around 4:30 pm) starts to feel like a total disaster. Donno if it is the gloomy, cloudy, absolutely-no-sunshine-at-all weather that has been resident here in Memphis since Monday, or just that I have so much that I have no energy left feeling. Neeways, no matter how tired I am, I still have to rehearse my dance for the upcoming show, and Ihave to cook and just HAVE HAVE HAVE to get my hair washed and conditioned.

Listening to "O Meri Jaan" from Manzil-Manzil. Everytime I listen to this song there is something new that I learn about this song and I fall in love with it again! Like today, it is the stuble modulations that Asha-di does with her voice. PRICELESS!!

I was looking and thinking about my blog activities and realized that I have a post-writing frequency of once-a-year....that SUCKS!! Especially when I have so much to say and write and also when everyone around me is telling me to write a lot. So, starting right NOW, I am going to make a sincere and religious effort to write a couple of lines about my life, dance, beauty, impulses, actions, joys and sorrow that every new 24 hours bring to me..

Here's to writing just enuf to have this blog filled, my mind emptied and avioiding carpel-tunnel.

Poem about MOI

This is what a co-worker, PAMish, had to say about me!! Although this might seem a little cheesy, I think it is quite sweet!!

happy / joyful / jubliant / rejoicing / wallowing / zippy Leena,
who will be remembered for desiging unflawed NAFTA,
se sikho kya hota hai Jeena...

Glossary::
NAFTA-- was a STUPID and VERY VERY largescale project we worked on.
wallowing -- We all know the obvious meaning of this word, but this is written with the alternate meaning in mind, as explained here :: http://www.answers.com/wallowing&r=67

Gulf Shores -- AWESOME WEEKEND--FIRST ANNIVERSARY

We celebrated our First anniversary in Orange Beach, AL. Here is the information....

This is gulf shores and orange beach:
http://www.gulfshores.com/
http://www.gulf-shores-alabama-condo-rentals.com/index.htm

Directions:
http://www.gulf-shores-alabama-condo-rentals.com/driving_directions.htm

However, the better directions are these:
Taking Hwy 45S and Foley Express Way.

The route off Hwy45 takes lesser time. Also since we both enjoy driving, we both loved this drive since in parts it goes through small towns. The only cons are that when the route enters Mobile, AL. in a part of the town that is not very safe; and if you really want to save time then you need to take Foley Express Way and pay $3 toll.

We stayed at this hotel:
http://www.islandhousehotel.com/

Other places for the rentals:
http://www.gulfshoresreservations.com/
http://www.kaiserrealty.com/rental.php
http://www.meyerre.com/?s_kwcid=meyer%20realty%20gulf%20shores|563730488
http://www.brett-robinson.com/?gclid=CJaCtqOd2YsCFQstWAodXHlvaw
http://www.bamabeach.com/

Also check this out -- Gives a live view of the beach:
http://www.bamabeachcams.com/LiveCams/IslandHouseCam.htm

Other things to do :

1. Sunset at Fort Morgan..SPECTACULAR...hope for a clear sky.
2. Trail on Bon Secour Nature Refuge. Take the 4 mile trail, It ends in a beach.
3. Water scooter
4. Dolphin cruises
5. Goto Pensacola, FL: Nice drive to Pensacola
6. Day Trips

Things to take:
http://www.gulf-shores-alabama-condo-rentals.com/beach-vacation-packing-list.html

1. Sunscreen
2. Things to play on the beach
3. Sun glasses
4. Swiming clothes
5. Sneakers
6. Club ware
7. HUNGER FOR FUN!!

Places to eat:

Gulf shores:

• Lulu's: Fish tacos,open air, Cajun Shrimp :Tel: 251-967-LULU
• Desoto's: Seafood platter, grouper,crab legs
• The Steamer: Shrimp
• Shrimp Basket: Shrimp, next to Sovenier city with the big shark mouth.
• Original Oyester House: Pinacolada, Fried oyester, shrimp, grilled seafood, crab cakes, key lime pie. Take a walk on alligator patio.
• Dippin' Dots ice-cream: Perrrfect after a long trail walk.
• Piny Pony: Patio on the beach, drinks, martini, view of the moon from the patio.
• Cheesecake at Hope's Cheesecake-- Have not eaten..heard it is really good. NOT a cheesecake FAN :(

Orange Beach:

• Flora/Bama- Club/gr8 drinks, DANCE and CROWD

Foley:

• Key lime milkshake at the Stacey Old Tyme Soda Fountain
• "Throwed Rolls" at Lambert's Cafe- This place has somevege options, The best part is that they throw hot rolls to you and you have catch them..FUN!! This is next to the big shopping mall.

Loxley, AL ( on hwy 45):

• Stop at Burris Farmer's market in Loxley and eat AWESOME strawberry shortcake, key lime pie. Best while driving back.

Other Favorites

Photos coming up........CANNOT WAIT TO GO BACK!!!
One of the best weekends we've had together....CHEERS TO ONE YEAR OF MARITAL BLISSS :-D

Spiderman..Spiderman...Good Spe-Eff and yet Boring..SPIDERMAN

Went and saw Spiderman-3 last Saturday. WHAT a BOOOOring script!! Apart from the wacky dancing of Mr. Toby and the sometimes interesting special effects, the movie seemed to be really inspired by some chewed-on Hindi movie script. Hero and heroine deeply in love, hero's best friend-turned nemesis, loves the heroine and wants revenge dur to "galatfaimi". So to take revenge, he tells the heroine "Agar HERO ki JAAN pyari hai toh usse bolo ke tum uss-se pyaar nahin karti". But just in the nick of time, the galatfaimi is cleared and in true "dosti ka imtehaan", the guy forgets about revenge and find newly-bloomed and stronger "dosti". Another villian aka. Sandman is nice-guy-turned-bad-boy saying, " Main accha insaan hoon jiski kismet kharaab hai"...Third villian is bad-boy-becomes-dangerous saying.."Yaad kar kutte tune mere saath kya kiya...Ab main tumhare saath wahi karronga". The hero forgives Sandman becuase of his "dukh-bhari kahani" and kills the real-bad-guy after the hero's best friend dies at his hands. Please translate this into American-English, and add some lectures about "achaa insaan" and there you have the script of Spiderman-3.

That brings me to my tri-rule: By the time a director makes the last movie of a triology, he is so tried and at loss of ideas that he probably looks for inspiration to mushy romantic movies or to fairy-tales or worse even to lectures about good morals and behaviour.
Example: 1. Matrix trilogy --First movie was WOW !! Second..SPECTACULAR!!! Third ...What was HE thinking ??
2. Rambo -- Not really a trilogy..but you see my point :-)

However, an Exception to the rule: Lord of the Rings. But I think that director already had a well-written, well-plotted script in the form of the book. Also, I would not really call the movies and trilogy...because they are essentially the same story.

That said, I am a FAN of "Pirates..." and the third movie is being released pretty soon. I would really like the "tri-rule" to be proved wrong....am really hoping for it.

OK..now the good things about Spiderman-3:
1. James Franco - Would like to see him in some well-scripted plot. Also would like to see if he can do any comedy. But he sure can act.
2. Toby Maguire dance - It was really entertaining..though HILLAROUS!!
3. Special Effects - I can see how this movie became the "most -expensive" movie so far

Would like to see Spiderman-1 or 2over 3 anytime. However, all that said...I am one of the those who has contributed to making the movie, number 1 for 2 weeks and to help it recover the expenses...Would LOOOVE to watch ANY Spiderman over some STUPID movies anytime..examples of stupid movies --disturbia, blades of glory, 300.

G and me were watching the Oscars yesterday. What a long ceremony! Whenever I watched the awards night earlier, it always seemed to be just long enuf to bear and (may I say it) ENJOY!. However, yesterday was a killer. Ellen was the MOST Boring compere. I wonder what hosting Oscar nights does to good, honest and FUNNY comedians; Chris Rock was another example. Just makes me think what kind of practice and endurance it must have taken of Whoopi and Billy.C. to host the ceremony so well. Also, I hated Ellen's dresses. Most people and speeches were alrite and NOT urging one to yawn..EXCEPT for al Gore :-)

Bravo to Forrest Whitaker. I was rooting for Will Smith..but I think Forrest had a good chance (though I have just seen glimpses of 'King of Scotland')..AAh..that reminds me..Need to compile a list of oscar films I want to see...

I was really very happy for Jennifer Hudson. It is indeed very inspring for a girl singing gospel in church, to make it American Idol, get voted out, do one movie and then Win the GG, oscar and land on the cover of vogue. Also I really like her because she projects a GREAT body image...Very inspiring to see her perform confidently with the "PERRRFECT" Beyonce and SHINE!!!

Anyway..pretty late...G is cross...more later...

I will always Love you....

I will always love you..

Minutes have turned into hours,
Hours into days,
Days into weeks,
Weeks into months,
And I still seem to fall.
I have tried everything but nothing seems to help me at all.

Tears rush down my face
As if it is the very moment that I lost you again,
When I close my eyes I see your face so clear,
As if you were now with me and so near.

I reach out to touch you like I used to
Walk to you till the distance between us becomes a few,
I want to whisper that I love you
And that you can take me without further a due.

The touch of your lips still lingers on my lips
The way you felt on me, within me, makes me miss a few beats.
Though memories seem to fade,
The love I feel for you still remains.

I want to feel your touch,
Want to feel your warmth and so much.
I want to hear your heart beat close to mine
And whisper to you that it is just divine.

But as I sit alone in the silence of my room,
All I can hear is your voice
And then I think about all the mistakes and the choice.

The look in your eyes when you kissed me overcomes,
There is nothing else in the world that made me so succumb.
The moments we had together surround me in parts,
The thought of the way things were and what they could have been break my heart.
But nothing stops the pain now since,
I know that getting over you will be the hardest thing I will ever do.

I want to reach out for you and to feel what I felt
To be again in your warm embrace that so made me completely melt.
I want so much to say that I love you
And that I would give the world for that too.

That is when the picture starts to dim,
And the heartache fills up to the brim.
And that is when you look at me and smile,
And it dawns on me that it's been a while.

But before you can say a word
I realize it is a different world,
Because having you with me was just a thought,
A wish I've been making since the day we started drifting apart.

Minutes will turn into hours,
Hours into Days,
Day's into weeks,Weeks into months,
And still my heart will break for you.

Just for one more chance to tell you that I will always love you and till death I do.

- Leena
2/9/2006, 12:30am

Random thoughts read somewhere

Random thoughts...Very interesting thought...

When Fighting with your husband... use this to win an argument....

• Never question your wife's judgement; Look whom she chose to marry
  

When sitting down idle, PONDER...

• If we are to help others, wonder what the other are here for ????
  

I broke up...

I broke up...

I broke up with you today,
I just let you go.

I killed the hope that I had in me I could not let it more grow
For this time i realisedThe pain and hurt had began to hypnotise.

And all the love and all the romance that was once there
Was not any strong for me to wear.

As I sit here in my empty room
Thinking about what you said and said what me
I wonder if all this is really worth a grieve.

I always knew in my heart this was not meant to be
For when it is we can clearly see.

But I am not bitter for I know
That we tried hard to make the love grow.

So as I sit here wondering why I cannot cry
I know becuase it was worth the try.

So even if loving you might be a mistake
For I an take the blame, the one thing I will partake.

For loving you showed me how pretty the world is
My love for you told me never a full moon to miss.

When I loved you the flowers and the spring were just for me
I felt the warmth even in the winter and the sleet.

So as I sit here thinking about what happened
I know that I am not heart broken.

For everytime I will think about us I will think about the smiles not the tears,
I will think about the love you's and not the swears,
I will think about the nights and not the fights,
I will think about the songs and not the lies.

Because you taught me to love, to care and to share
And for that I will always remember you as my teddy bear.

So even though now I feel a litle girl
Whose lost her teddy when she took a swirl,
And it will be hard since I lost you
And there will be days that I will miss you
But I know that I will get through
Becuase even in all the ordeal you made sure I grew.


-Leena
3/31/2006, 3:22pm